life's funny

Last week I was contemplating my life and coming up a bit short. Not to get all whiny on you, but trying to make a living in the arts (especially now) is really tough and to be honest, it was weighing on me. Whenever I start comparing myself to others, I sometimes get a little depressed. It's hard to constantly have to say no to friends who invite me on trips that I can't afford right now. I wouldn't trade my life for anything, but I have to admit, when I hear about all the cool adventures my friends have been on recently (Europe, touring with their bands, the places they've seen, the people they've met), I grumble a little. It can feel a bit like I'm working in a vacuum. Don't get me wrong, it's really awesome to invest in yourself and put all your energy into creating something positive. But man, there are moments where I would trade it all in for a plane ticket and Depeche Mode concert. 

But life is funny — just when I was getting down on myself, we got some great news. Chris and I are going to be on the local CBC radio morning show to talk about our documentary. We're such big fans of the show (and the CBC in general), so it's pretty cool that we get a chance to go on and talk about what we've been working on for the past ten months. It's a little weird — I've spent most of my adult life working as a journalist but this is the first time that someone will be asking me the questions. I'm really nervous! But it's so fun to get a chance to do this kind of stuff with Chris. I think that's the best thing about collaborating with your spouse — we constantly get the opportunity to see each other in new ways and have new experiences. We've been married for nine years, so it's so incredible to be able to do this with him — instead of just doing the typical, boring, married people stuff like yard work and grocery shopping.

This whole experience has been eye-opening and the movie has its own momentum. At this point, Chris and I feel lucky that we just get to guide it along. Whenever I get tired or down on myself, these opportunities pop up and that's how I know we're on the right track. Although, it would have been really cool to sing along with "Personal Jesus" in Vegas with my good friends, I'm starting to get the feeling that this is where I'm supposed to be.